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Is it all in that pretty little head of yours? What goes on in that place in the dark?

When I was first diagnosed as being autistic, I relayed the fact to my (then) therapist. Her first question was, “So does that mean you don’t feel emotion?” Any chance of a successful therapeutic relationship pretty much went out the window in that moment, but this isn’t about that. It’s more about perceptions of autismContinue reading “Is it all in that pretty little head of yours? What goes on in that place in the dark?”

It isn’t easy to be kind with all these demons in my mind.

I recently read the indomitable and incomparable Allie Brosh‘s second book, which includes a chapter on how she tried to overcome loneliness and depression after her divorce. She described the process as “befriending herself”. This is something that both my husband and my former therapists have attempted with me, but for some reason it resonatedContinue reading “It isn’t easy to be kind with all these demons in my mind.”

So today I’m gonna do my best to drink coffee in the morning and live as if I didn’t feel lonely and hopeless and helpless.

There are times that I feel despairing about my life and the way it has turned out. I turned forty years old last month. A woman now unquestionably in her middle years. I have no career. No savings. No real prospects for the future. Even if I was offered my dream job tomorrow, the chancesContinue reading “So today I’m gonna do my best to drink coffee in the morning and live as if I didn’t feel lonely and hopeless and helpless.”

When I grow up I will be brave enough to fight the creatures that you have to fight beneath the bed each night to be a grown-up…

I guess all children thinks that adults are invincible. I know that when I was very small, I assumed that my mother and father knew anything and everything. It was a shock to me when my mother explained that that there were many things she did not know, that life was a never-ending process ofContinue reading “When I grow up I will be brave enough to fight the creatures that you have to fight beneath the bed each night to be a grown-up…”

I’m hard to love…I don’t make it easy. I couldn’t do it if I stood where you stood.

Being either autistic or having ADHD tends to make a person seem self-centered. Having both makes it seem the obvious conclusion to draw. Being autistic, I am in my own head a lot of the time. I often ignore other people unless they deliberately draw my attention or I need them for something. I tendContinue reading “I’m hard to love…I don’t make it easy. I couldn’t do it if I stood where you stood.”

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